Forgive like your life depends on it

When we think about starting a health journey, we focus on diet plans and gym routines. But when I started my journey years ago, God showed me there was something else just as important as changing my eating and exercise habits. Forgiveness.

You see, for so many years, I beat myself up for not taking good care of my body.  How did I let myself get to 267 pounds on my 5’2 frame? I would get so caught up in my own disappointment that I would self medicate with overeating, the very thing I was beating myself up for! It was a vicious cycle that kept repeating itself.

Then came the summer of 2012, when a high blood pressure diagnoses put everything into perspective.  I finally realized that choices were putting me at higher risk for stroke and heart disease. The good news: I had the power of choice to change it.  But first, I had to forgive myself for the choices that led me to that diagnosis.

Here’s the thing about the past.  We cannot go back and change it.  It’s impossible.  Reliving those moments in our minds can sometimes lead to repeating them.  We can only learn from the past, and use our failures and mistakes as tools to help us grow.

Nearly four years and 100 pounds later on my journey, forgiveness remains one of the most important tools.  Trust me, there are days I still struggle with eating well and exercising.  On bad days, I find comfort in God’s forgiveness, and freedom in forgiving myself, too.