Actions over feelings

Most days, I set myself up to be motivated, positive and excited about tackling my job, my journey, and my life. I roll out of bed and into a gratitude prayer. I play a motivational video or sermon while brushing my teeth and getting dressed. And I greet my co-workers at News 3 with a smile and a laugh, and get the day going all before 3:30am.

Most days that actually works.

But on one particular Tuesday?  It. Did. Not.

I just had one of those days… I felt “blah.”  Bloated.  Unmotivated.  Unworthy.

I chugged down several cups of coffee just to get through the morning show and make it through the rest of my shift.  I certainly had no interest in being “Jessica on a Journey” that day…

It happens to the best of us, and boy did it happen to me.  All I wanted to do was order something big, cheesy and greasy, stuff my face (and my feelings) and go to bed. But if we lived every day being led by our fleeting feelings, we’d be in big trouble. I know, because that’s what landed me in the hospital for high blood pressure at the age of 27 years old in 2012.

Through this fitness journey, I’ve had to learn, re-learn, and learn again the lesson of actions over feelings.  For 45 minutes, I ignored the nagging feelings of “you’re not good enough” in my mind and pushed through a workout.  It was far from my best.  Could compete for my worst.  But I got it done.  Not one rep more than required, but it was done.  And guess what?  I actually felt better afterwards.  No, my feelings didn’t just disappear, but I was able to get the upper hand on managing my mood.

I’m not saying we should ignore how we feel.  Acknowledge it?  Yes.  Stew in it forever?  No.  Put it on pause, and push through the “blah” so you can feel better.  Take it from me. Trying to eat your feelings away only makes it worse in the long run.

And if you have a bad moment and inhale a box of cookies, brush it off and begin again.  Every 60 seconds brings a new moment.  Show up for yourself and push through whatever is pulling you down.  It may just turn your day around.